when you hurt I hurt too...

Yesterday it was Daniels long awaited swimming birthday party. The invites were sent out 3 weeks ago...one would think...sufficient time for a party?

Off we went, sandwiches for an expected 15 kids, crisps, sweets, party bags, cakes ect to the pool. Dan had been literally counting the days for this one, we got there a bit early as you do, in order to meet and greet ur guests....

We waited, Josh arrived with Alyx and Leigh, my cousins kids, we waited some more.... finally we realised, nobody was coming!

No, we hadnt got the wrong day, we hadnt got the wrong time, we hadnt sent the invites out too late, infact, we hadnt missed a thing.....but NOBODY came to my baby's birthday party except his cousins :-(

I cannot tell you how sore my heart is for this little boy who announced this morning that yesterday was the worst day in his whole life! I dont fuckin blame hime!

This is for all the peices of shit who thought themselves and their kids better than me and mine. If I could wish any bad to befall you.... it would be for u to each endure the pain you have just put me through...to see your child.... hurt...on his party... abandoned with no explaination.... left to blow out his candles alone, nobody to give his party bags which he packed all by himself. I would wish this apon each and every one of you....but I wont....because I would never want to see any child go through what you didnt give a continental fuck about putting my child through....but know this...from the core of my being....I hate you all!

To my baby boy who is now seven years old, you so didnt deserve this, you deserved to have your day celebrated and shared with those who are lucky enough to know your wonderful self. I love you so so so much my baby, you light up my days, you warm my soul, and you bring laughter to my heart. Happy birthday baby....mommy...x

IM BACK, IM IN AND IM CLEAN!

Just a quickie....to update u all, I am back online, thank gawd!!

I am in our new house and fuckin lovin it!!!!

And finally, tomorrow will be ONE WHOLE SMOKE FREE MONTH!!!

Gonna be updatin on muh fav blog haunts and will return for a more in detail post later.

Just wanted to say thanks to all those who put a good word in for us in this whole process...you did good!